II. STORY OF THE WEEK
September 30, 2016. Education Tour of my special someone, of course with her classmates. It’s somewhere at Bataan. First, I didn’t feel comfortable when she said that she will be going to attend that tour, not because of the place they will be, but because of one person. If being over protected with her in the way that I don’t want her to attend that tour is being a selfish and immature person, then I admit it, I’m selfish, not because I don’t want her to be spend time with others but because I know that one of her classmates had crush on her, and I feel that he loves her also. While we are texting with each other, I feel jealous, in the way that she started to reply late compared with she’s not with Renniel. I feel that I’m not only person in her heart that day. That day is their dream but for me, it’s my nightmare. Starting that day, we always argued with each other, and I always make “hinala” with her. The trust I have for her, already broke. The most painful day of my life is when we had misunderstanding and Renniel always there for her. I don’t understand why she need to told everything about our situation to Renniel despite of knowing what Renniel feel for her. If I’m not mistaken, I always cry that time, I always went to school not prepared in anything, and I have not interested in everything. I feel like I’m loss, I’m broken and I’m already dying. One day my friend told me “bakit parang may itim na awra na nakabalot sayo?”, and then my tears started to fall and I walked far away with them, but they follow me. I started to open my situation, they said “kung ganyan lang din naman, iwan mon a lang, tignan mo sarili mo, luting ka lagi, di ka naman ganyan dati”, I said “di ko kaya e. sya yung buhay ko”. Then one of them talks to me personally and hug me while saying, “alam mo mijo, ganyan talaga, minsan kung sino yung kala natin makakapagpasaya satin, sila din yung magbibigay sakit, kelangan lang natin iha dle yung mga nangyayare.” My tears won’t stop falling that time, because of the pain inside my heart. After that day, I’ve decided to accept the fact that she will be falling in love with someone, but I will never let her go as long as she loves me, but if she will say that she already with someone, I will let her go, I will set her free. No matter how pain it is, no matter how hard it is, I will set her free.
It’s been a year, but still I feel the pain. There is always tears in my eyes everytime I remember that day. (to be continued)
September 30, 2016. Education Tour of my special someone, of course with her classmates. It’s somewhere at Bataan. First, I didn’t feel comfortable when she said that she will be going to attend that tour, not because of the place they will be, but because of one person. If being over protected with her in the way that I don’t want her to attend that tour is being a selfish and immature person, then I admit it, I’m selfish, not because I don’t want her to be spend time with others but because I know that one of her classmates had crush on her, and I feel that he loves her also. While we are texting with each other, I feel jealous, in the way that she started to reply late compared with she’s not with Renniel. I feel that I’m not only person in her heart that day. That day is their dream but for me, it’s my nightmare. Starting that day, we always argued with each other, and I always make “hinala” with her. The trust I have for her, already broke. The most painful day of my life is when we had misunderstanding and Renniel always there for her. I don’t understand why she need to told everything about our situation to Renniel despite of knowing what Renniel feel for her. If I’m not mistaken, I always cry that time, I always went to school not prepared in anything, and I have not interested in everything. I feel like I’m loss, I’m broken and I’m already dying. One day my friend told me “bakit parang may itim na awra na nakabalot sayo?”, and then my tears started to fall and I walked far away with them, but they follow me. I started to open my situation, they said “kung ganyan lang din naman, iwan mon a lang, tignan mo sarili mo, luting ka lagi, di ka naman ganyan dati”, I said “di ko kaya e. sya yung buhay ko”. Then one of them talks to me personally and hug me while saying, “alam mo mijo, ganyan talaga, minsan kung sino yung kala natin makakapagpasaya satin, sila din yung magbibigay sakit, kelangan lang natin iha dle yung mga nangyayare.” My tears won’t stop falling that time, because of the pain inside my heart. After that day, I’ve decided to accept the fact that she will be falling in love with someone, but I will never let her go as long as she loves me, but if she will say that she already with someone, I will let her go, I will set her free. No matter how pain it is, no matter how hard it is, I will set her free.
It’s been a year, but still I feel the pain. There is always tears in my eyes everytime I remember that day. (to be continued)
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